Im so sad. I wanna cry. B1A4 left last night. I was there to send them off. I was so sad, but I didnt want to cry infront of them. They were sad too): I made my fanboard ytd and i brought it to the airport. Gongchan saw it. I wasnt looking at him, i was looking at my board, afraid that it might drop. When i turned, I saw GongChan staring at my board and I eye-contacted with him. My last 5 secs with him. ;__; Okay omg, im crying now. Lets just start from day 1 again.
Aug7
Went to the airport with a nervous heart with Amanda. Saw many many fangirls, im afraid i might not see Gongchan. When they came out, i was so scared and nervous. Finally, they were infront of me. Merlin helped me took a polaroid of Baro and Amanda helped me took a fancam of them. I saw Gongchan. I saw him! Although he was facing the other side, I was still glad. Then I stalked them to their hotel. I saw them eating. They still played with us while they are taking food and a kind fangirl helped me pass my letter to Gongchan! I wonder if he read it yet? I hope he will... When I stalked them at night, at the flyer, I took a really near fancam of them! Sobs. And GongChan waved and make hearts and cute faces at me. I wanna cry. I went home happy.
Aug8
I planned to go to Iluma only. When i reached, many fangirls were there alr. When they came out, I took a polaroid of Sandeul and Char helped me took a fancam of them. Gongchan waved at my camera. SOBS. ): I was depressed cos I didnt take a polaroid of Gongchan... i was so damn sad over there seeing them signing and hi-fiving the other lucky fans. When they left, we decided to stalk them. I stalked them all the way to Jumbo Restaurant. They went in, I waited for them for ard 2 hours. Finally, they came out, Char helped me took a fancam of them. And I touched Baro's hand! I just hi-fived him like that and his hand was so smooth ): and I finally took a polaroid of Gongchan! He was kinda looking at my camera! And he was so cute! Sobs. I went home happy again.
Aug9

Char's fancam. I off-ed the sound to avoid anybody getting deaf from the screams of the fangirls.
I went to stalk them in the morning, received many fanservices from them. Gongchan did the 'Bling Girl' dance move to me. At first I thought he was just doing aegyo to me but in the end it was 'Bling Girl'! Sobs. He waved, I eye-contacted with him and Jinyoung alot. Jinyoung did aegyo to me too (: When they went in Suntec City, I took a polaroid of Sandeul and Char helped me took a fancam again(: After that, went to meet Belinda to watch the showcase. thanks to her, I got a free ticket ^O^ I had fun screaming at the showcase. After that, i went to stalk them again. At the hotel, at the gate, Gongchan was still in the van. but he was doing fanservices to us. He did the promise thing himself. Then I made my hand into the pinky promise shape and he did the same, then, we pinky promised each other. He was looking at me when he did that. I was dying of happiness. That was the best fanservice. Sobs. And I saw them sleeping in the van. They were so cute! Gongchan was leaning on Sandeul and CNU was leaning on Jinyoung! I smiled while watching them sleep. How can they be so beautiful even when they are asleep? Sobs. I went home happy again.
Aug10
This day is finally here. I felt sad the whole day. I made my board with Char and finally, we headed to the airport. I waited for 2 hours. Finally they arrived. They gave us a goodbye speech even though they were going in by CIP Terminal. They came to say goodbye to us even though they can just go straight to the CIP! They were so sweet and nice and friendly to all the fans. They dont even mind us stalking them for 4 days straight. They will still wave and smile at us. I love you, jinjja. I took a polaroid of Gongchan and half of Baro. Still, I felt lucky. Cos Gongchan saw my board and eye-contacted with me. We finally passed our candies to them by their manager. I wonder if they received it? Have they tried it? I bought the 'happy birthday' one for Gongchan and I wrote a message for him. I hope he sees it. Please. When they left, my heart sank. Really. I went home sad this time round.
Aug11
I was missing B1A4 the whole of today. I miss them really much. I miss Gongchan. I miss him. When will they come back? Sandeul said they will come back soon. I hope so. Please. I'll be there for you Gongchan. I'll support you by your side till the day you come back here. I'll watch over you from here, do well in Seoul. Dont doubt my love for you. Dont ever forget the promise you made. You promised you will be back right? Please remember me. I'll tweet to you everyday. Hoping for a reply. I want to see you again. i must see you again. I gave up everything for you. I came home late everyday and got scolded by my parents. And its all for you. Please remember me. I love you. I love you alot alot. Saranghae<3 I love you my bling boy. Oh baby my bling boy<3